What is your philosophy/religion? Meaning of life? God?

I believe in God but don't believe in the church

I am Christian

There is such a thing as optimistic nihilism, which is the ideology I subscribe to. The core value of nihilism is that life has no intrinsic meaning. This does not make nihilism inherently negative, that's a personal choice of the individual.  An optimistic nihilist sees no embedded meaning in life, leaving them free to make their own meaning. The idea that life has no meaning is still present, which means this ideology still falls under the definition of nihilism.

As I said, the pessimistic outlook is a personal choice of the individual, not the be-all-end-all. There are nihilists that participate in destructive self-indulgent activities, simply because of the "why not?" factor. But that's not a requirement of nihilism. I believe life has no meaning, and we should stop looking for the meaning that so many religions claim exists, and start making our own. I see it as liberation from the shackles of contradictory answers that religions give us. Surrendering to the idea that there are things we can't control, and focusing on making the most of the things we can control. 

Just because life has no meaning doesn't mean you can't value it. It's extremely lucky that we exist, but the universe doesn't care either way. So we might as well make the most of it while we can. The universe will die someday, and us along with it, even if we make it to the end and our civilizations harness black holes for energy. A pessimistic nihilist might believe the universe will end in heat death, or a big rip, where the universe will be a dark empty space for literally forever. An optimistic nihilist might believe the universe will collapse and a new big bang will happen. Both sides believe the universe WILL end/did, and so will we no matter what we do. Because the universe doesn't care about us. We could be the most advanced civilization in the universe and we'd still die, because that's the way the universe is.

Optimistic Nihilism. The name in itself is an oxymoron. Optimism is to give value to something, Nihilism is the belief of a lack of value, a complete void of meaning. "Just because life has no meaning doesn't mean you can't value it" is paradoxical to the nth degree. 

In essence (lol), Existentialism is the journey to seeking meaning in a universe devoid of it. Commonly, Nihilism is used to describe the lack (or negation) of intrinsic value in a metaphysical sense. That is, any optimism in this context is not only baseless it is also self-negating. Going by the belief that you should cherish life is inherently against the core principle of Nihilism in that you are making up your own meaning where there is none. By living as though you are satisfied with the lack of meaning in the world means that you have now formed your own meaning because you are living as though there is one. "I recognize the lack of meaning in the world, but I still live as though there is"  is essentially what one might describe Existentialism is, if we are going by a very reductionistic definition. Framed another way: Existentialism the pragmatic approach to Nihilism, because you continue to live with your own self-created meaning, even though you recognize that in essence there is none. 

We could also go by semantics: Nihilism entirely deals with truth and an objective nature for existence. Nihilism is an existential philosophy in contrast to Optimism, which is more of a moral philosophy (which Nihilism rejects because morals don't exist). Optimism can be described as a coping mechanism in regards to pain. The two don't deal with the same subject matter since Nihilism doesn't concern itself with what one "ought to do", because again, no values, ethics or morals objectively exist, therefore combining the two terms shows a lack of understanding of how philosophy works in a broad manner: Nihilism is a neutral (or non-existant) stance on values. There is no good or evil, no right or wrong, and the very nature of Optimism deals with a positive outlook on life makes it redundant in relation to Nihilism. Summarized, your notion of "Optimistic Nihilism" would be: "a philosophy in which nothing matters, therefore you are free to pursue any goals". Odlly reminiscent of Nietzsche's slave-master morality concept: when you reject meaning you no longer enslave yourself to the universe, and thus you become the ubermensch: a man in charge of his own destiny and thus avoiding the pitfalls of Moral Nihilism. 

To be optimistic is to hope and have faith in good things happening. Good is a value, and values do not exist according to a Nihilistic viewpoint: it is entirely meaningless. 
 

I was Catholic then I went Christianity. I do believe in Jesus (his hairstyle is amazing). I also don't believe in luck. Saying you had a lucky day isn't true because luck can't affect the outcome of your day. And I don't give a crap if I open an umbrella, or find a 4 lead clover. Because that just doesn't do anything. I also don't really believe in actual ghosts walking around. However my mother does. But I really don't think that all that paranormal activity stuff can happen. If the microwave stops while heating up a Hot Pocket. Then it wasn't Abraham Lincoln who did that.

My Mom noticed that it was extremely quiet and boring at the church. Which is most likely normal.