Post by Deleted on Feb 13, 2020 5:50:48 GMT
Hello everyone. I hope you guys are doing well, and I apologize for a somewhat long post. I'd like to talk about some things and come forward about things.
So I genuinely don't know where to start. This post is going to be all over the place. TL;DR at bottom.
Let's just start at 2015:
Before going on with this; I do need to come clear about things.
2015/2017
So I genuinely don't know where to start. This post is going to be all over the place. TL;DR at bottom.
Let's just start at 2015:
- I joined the server under the name MsSkillz__ (I believe that was my first username). I joined with the intent to troll; for those back that had to deal with me, I'm sorry. I got banned many times. Eventually, I saw someone helping out in the server. I'm not sure what clicked in my immature head, but something did. I went from a troll to attempting to help and quit my trolling. Now, I feel I did fairly well at that. I did have some mishaps and bumps in the road to get to the point of that. Now, fast forwarding quite a bit to where I'm more recognized in the server, I get a recommendation to apply for admin. I believe I had a few recs at the time of that. You can check my old application right here. It was an obvious mess and had no formatting. Keep in mind, in 2015, I was 12/13. I am 17 now. Aside from not meeting the requirements of having a 90(60? 30?) day old forum account and no reports, I had my TPaS approved. Mark approved it and from there I got SA.
Before going on with this; I do need to come clear about things.
- Many of you (people from back in 2015ish) know me as well, a girl. I'm not a girl. I did claim to be. I was immature and at that point when I did that, I didn't have many friends (just a couple and my best friend at the time). I thought if I said I was a girl I could open myself up more (like express myself I guess). I didn't expect for my fake persona to get that far. I've never mentioned it because I believed it was just too late to even say anything and I was too deep in my own shit to just say I'm someone different. Now, going back to the story where Savnith comes in and everything goes downhill for me.
2015/2017
- For those who know of Savnith, he was quite a nuisance. Anyways, it was a big fiasco with him. I don't remember the initial conversation between him and I, but I do know it ended up in me giving him my (supered) account. At the time of me giving him my account, I didn't exactly have access to play minecraft so I pretty much gave him my entire account until I had the password changed. I couldn't tell you why I gave in and let him use my account, but I did. It was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Everyone wondered how he knew the information he did, and I just stayed quiet. It eventually escalated to a point where everyone (for the most part) believed I was Savnith. I realized how deep of trouble I was in. I wasn't able to convince anyone otherwise. Here is the truth of what happened. It became hell for me and I didn't really know what to do. So after a while, I ended up changing my password down the line to where he wasn't able to access it. It still didn't change the fact no one believed me. I don't remember if I remained supered or not but I do remember I either got it removed or I resigned. I eventually took a break for a bit then came back and reinstated. I do believe I got reinstated at that time. I wasn't able to remain admin due to personal reasons (financial). There was also an encounter with Scutix. He apparently got a VPN with my 50In1 account (which was supered) and accidentally breached me. I don't even recall that until Video reminded me. Here is one of my reinstatements. I don't recall the time of that. (Okay, after reading the replies, that was Savnith using my forum account to reinstate.)
I was very immature at those times. I mean, it's not surprising considering this was nearly 5 years ago and I was just barely becoming a teenager. There are also incidents such as this and this (which had partly me involved, and for those who know about Dubstep and I will understand).
Now, I'm not necessarily apologizing for what I did, while I do regret it, sorry doesn't fix what I did. In my opinion, saying sorry doesn't do anything. I do regret what I did and I hope you guys could give me another chance without associating me with whatever it is you would possibly associate me with.